I won’t lie. My chest feels tight.
It’s Monday morning, the day after the big 4-9 birthday.
The day was filled with my loved ones, goofball ridgebacks, beach walks, belly laughs, cake, gifts and a cheeky glass or 2 of fizz. I went to bed with a grateful heart, feeling blessed I had all I could wish for on my 49th birthday.
Unfortunately, there wasn’t to be any quality shut eye to follow such a giddy day.
There was maybe a 2 hour period where I slept like a baby.
Then boom! I was awake.
I could literally feel my heart pounding through the duvet.
‘Tick tock, tick tock’ were the words echoing through my mind, whilst I reached for my phone, squinting to check the time, 1.35am, uuurggghh really?!
What is it this time Tanya?! What is pickling my mind tonight???
The more I wrestled to fall back to sleep, the more my thoughts and heart beats raced in tandem. It was as though Phil Collins was in the corner of my room playing a rendition of ‘In The Air Tonight’. Please god don’t let this be one…